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I got in trouble the other day. BIIIIGGGG TROUBLE :) I had taken a pot roast out of the freezer and it was either cook it or throw it away. We all know that I dont have my car so I have to rely on others for transportation. I called my mother, she was working. I called my son, he was at the gym then had to go to work. I called my neighbor, the baby was sleeping and he couldnt take me. Normally I could've waited but it was 90 degrees and I needed to cook the roast in the crock pot (no way was I turning that oven on). Crock pot roasts take hours so I couldnt wait until everyone wasnt busy so I walked. According to mapquest, my local Pathmark is .68 miles away and I walked it!! OMG I WALKED IT!! Truth be told, I was dead by the time I got there. The pain was so bad that I was dragging my feet because I couldnt even pick my legs up but I made it!! My son called me when I was almost there to ask what I was doing. I told him that I was walking to the store. The next thing I knew he was behind me on line yelling at me like I was 12. "You could've killed yourself!". "Are you trying to put yourself in a wheelchair!!". He drove me home, helped me up the stairs and stormed out. Everybody has been yelling at me ever since. Yes, it was stupid for me to do it. Yes, sometimes my stubborn streak gets in the way of good sense and yes, it took 3 vicodin before I could walk from the couch to the bathroom afterwards. But they arent seeing the big picture here. I made it! 6 months ago I couldnt walk to the deli on the corner and 2 days ago I walked over half a mile! I'm sorry, they can be as mad as they need to. I'm proud of myself. Dont think I'll be trying that again anytime soon but I'm still happy.

What else? I went on another interview yesterday. While I was driving up there I got stuck in a storm like no other storm I'd ever seen. I was driving on a highway - speed limit normally 65mph. The rain was so heavy that nobody on that highway drove over 15mph. I couldnt even see the front of the car, nevermind what was in front of the car. The smart drivers pulled over to let the storm pass. I was already late and couldnt pull over. I made it up there 45 minutes late. I was so stressed over driving in that mess (I had never been more afraid to drive in my life). I got off the major highway and pulled onto a smaller state road that was flooded. The cops were directing people onto side streets to avoid getting stuck in the waters and I'd lost GPS signal. When I finally found the place I pulled into the first parking lot that I saw. This place was HUGE! There are 3 building complexes to this company, each complex has 4 or 5 buildings and each complex is about a mile and a half from the next one. First I was told that I was in the wrong building. I was directed to another building only to find out that I was in the wrong complex completely. I think going to the wrong complex hurt me even more than being late. The job is a +6 month contract to QA a new software build. The interview went great but the job requires following very detailed instructions but I couldnt follow directions to the right complex. I dont expect them to be calling any time soon.

I havent yet found a way to tell that other guy that I cant take his job. I know thats wrong! He knows that I dont have a car until late today so he isnt expecting me until tomorrow. I need to figure out a way to tell him that I cant work for him. It feels somehow wrong to me. I've prayed so hard for a job. Here I get one and I have to turn it down.

What else? OH!! I was whining about the scale saying 223 wasnt I? Apparently that was TOM weight. I stepped on the scale this morning and saw 217. Isnt that a nice number? :)

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!!!!!!!!!!! I GOT THE JOB !!!!!!!!!!!

The recruiter just called me. They were very impressed with me yesterday and would like to offer me the position. It's a 6 month contract position with the possibility of permenant. Even if it's 6 months I'll take it!!! It's SO much more money than what I was making before. 6 months will give me the chance to catch up on all my bills and save a little money too. Then if the software they're designing takes off I could be hired perm!! OMG OMG OMG!! This nightmare is over!! Even if it turns out to be temporary, at least I can breathe for a little while